I don't know why we are so hard on each other, and ourselves, when we are learning to paint and draw. There is some kind of belief that artists are born rather than made. This is NOT TRUE. Artists have to learn and practice just like musicians, dancers or any other creative type. We are not born knowing everything about how to draw and paint.
Even for those with talent, there are a lot of bad paintings and drawings. I don't know if that ever stops. And talent is a small ingredient. You can have two artists. One with loads of talent but not willing to practice and work, the other with less talent but Dedicated. The second will end up the better artist.
You do not start out making great stuff. Maybe a few people do, but they are bloody rare. So, don't let other people give you a hard time. And don't give yourself a hard time either.
And go watch the vlog. It's good.