I have been feeling inadequate and anxious lately about what I think I have to do to further my career as an artist. Feeling that what I am doing is not enough. Feeling that I am not enough.
When I feel confused or unsure I have a certain writing process that I do to get answers.
I am not really sure how to explain it.
Is it channeling? Am I talking to my higher self? I am not sure. My preference is to imagine that I am talking to my angels, but the truth is that I don't know. I just know that the advice is good and very loving - and wiser than my own thoughts.
Here is how it went. It began with them(?) speaking.
We are in agreement that the society you live in is not very healthy. So why, if one of your most important values is to contribute to healing and transforming that culture, would you worry about learning the rules of how to succeed within that culture?
Because I am imagining that I need some kind of success/power within that culture in order to be heard?
And what do you think your chances are? Of learning how society works and then succeeding that way?
I think I have probably learned pretty much to my capacity. To really go down the route of meeting the 'right' people and making advantageous connections I would need a personality implant. I think if I succeed in a public sense, it will be through my pathways and talents of synchronicity, intuition, divine help and luck.
So why are you torturing yourself?
Good question. Habit?